About X
Hi y'all,
Welcome to this creation of mine which has come out of the desire to use my creative and talkative abilities, to inspire those around me to speak their truth as I speak mine, to make tarot something accessible and like a counseling session, and to one day monetize from this and use the money for savings, travel, and education. Just you visiting my site, watching a video, or listening to my words warms my heart so much and I hope it continues to spread to the electronic devices of so many others!!
Some things about me... I enjoy tarot reading, binging funny and/or dramatic tv series, making up little songs on my guitar, singing, playing piano, going on mental trips ;), fighting for justice, spending time with my lovely community, dancing like no one's watching at the club and shoving gross men out of the way (well I don't love this but it is a little fun to reject them), going to concerts, moshing, knitting, being a relationship anarchist, and so many other random activities that are my special interests of the week. Professionally I have a Bachelor's of Social Work, a job working in mental health, a background in various social work arenas, a very curious mind, and a mouth that will not shut the fuck up. I'm keeping my career, professional/legal name, place of work, place of college, and all professional things secret due to the nature of being a professional social worker and I DO NOT want my clients or boss to see me in my sexy little outfits or know some intimate details about me that I'm so open about on here. So although I wear my mask, who you see is my entire soul that I share proudly!
A big part of my identity is being neurodivergent. I've had to learn how to love being my authentic self. My neurodivergence means my ADHD, undiagnosed autism, and C-PTSD. It's quite the journey learning to take off a mask that seemingly kept me safe. Maybe if I'm quiet I won't say the wrong thing or get yelled at. Maybe if I just do as I'm told, memorize the correct social ques, mimic characteristics of each person I speak with I won't get yelled at. Maybe if I'm just extra nice even to people who aren't nice to me, I'll at least avoid the conflict. The depression, hiding, resentment, hate towards myself, anxiety, and few authentic relationships turned out not to be worth it. Since 2018, I've been peeling back the layers of my true self and speaking my truth no matter how loud, disruptive, or unappealing it is to others. Don't get me wrong, I still struggle with a booming inner critic and a hurt inner child in my mind and body, and sometimes it takes me a bit longer to speak my truth, but the point is that I'm further than I ever thought I could be. This healing journey will take years and I'm just grateful I'm on it and becoming the person that I would want to look up to. Instead of just one person knowing my authentic self there's many people, and hopefully thousands as this channel grows. I make sure I say what I need to say no matter how hard it is. I definitely don't do things just because someone tells me or wants me to do it. I show myself to the people around me, my clients, my coworkers, passing pedestrians, people in the club, and of course my friends and it's one of the most freeing things I've allowed myself to do. And I keep getting better and not hesitating in this.
This podcast/channel and these tarot readings are me being my true self and encouraging others to do the same. Although there's a literal mask, know that I'm not wearing a metaphorical mask and I'm learning everyday about who I am and what the fuck I'm doing on this planet. So if you want to come join me on this very strange Earthly journey, know that you are welcome! See you there <3